..and i call ur name like an addicted to cocaine calls 4 the stuff he'd rather blame.. yep, yep, coce.. m sitting here thinkin of my life as ive nothing better to do.. cocaine.. thats was my major mistake when i first time tried it u know but i dunno if the cocaine is at fault.. or me? or my ex? everything went terribly wrong, and that was when i found cocaine, and it was my only way to escape back then however, this thread aint bout me or my life, i just wanna share my thoughs bout mr charlie.. they say, its one of the most addictive substances. but is it, really? o.k, i was on coce for like 3 months every single nite, without days off and taking like 3-4 grams of this shit. i didnt sleep during that period, really.. few hrs sometimes and not more than that. sometimes been taking this shit all nite and then all day at work, then all nite again.. until i break down n sleep, then wake up and continue.. it was really REALLY bad.. that was before the end of me, coz the more i was taking, the more i was tired, couldnt do fuck all at work, started doing mistakes, a few major mistakes, and suddenly bam - i lost it all. couldve gone to prison, but i was lucky.. however, at that time i was making hudge money, so i didnt need to look 4 coce, the coce was coming to me lol sometimes i used to wake up in the morning and decide that thats it, no more, and just throw the remains to the bin. only to get more after couple of hrs. so stupid. couldnt really live without it in the end but thats a very, VERY expencive habbit. i didnt care then, but as soon as my money making chanels got closed, it hit me big big time. where am i supposed to get £200 a day 4 this shit?? obviously, its impossible, when u dont have income.. and u know, what? surprisingly, i just stopped! just like that. no suffering, no dramas.. didnt go to rob someone just to buy this shit or anything. yes, for some time i did feel an urge to get it whenever i was down n upset, but i knew i couldnt aford it and didnt make a big deal out of it. right now - even if u'd give it to me for free, i wouldnt take it yeh,and they say its one of the worst drugs. i quit it and no big deal, yeh? while thru all this i kept strugling to quit smoking and never succeeded. tried everything, gums, patches, all this rubbish - max i lasted without a fag was no longer than two weeks.. how come? lol any opinions on this?