Ever feel like you are watching a movie and you are the main character? In my movie, the main character drops out of a PhD program, during said program gets married. The wife seems unhappy. A move is made to try and fix things and things get worse and mentally, to survive, another move is made. Then, a divorce happens. In roughly two years, a doctoral program is lost, a marriage is lost, and the main character looks at the world and feels like one of those French writers who discuss how bleak the whole world is. Now, I sit and look at the world and wonder why? Of course, me being bright enough to maintain employment and get into a doctoral program can list many reasons why this happened, and what can be done to make life better. Sadly, I look at a very cold world, and am realize I can make no meaning at the present of anything.