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  1. toopainfultolive

    toopainfultolive Well-Known Member

    im cold. everywhere.my hand and feet are cold. frm the inside. blankets dont help. im scared. hiding my head underneath. my heart is going fast. curling up on the bed. wish someone can hug me. im too cold. cant breathe. im trying nt to cry. it hurts.
     
  2. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    what's wrong?
    why are you so cold?
     
  3. tweetypie

    tweetypie Antiquities Friend

    Can you tell us whats wrong ? what broughtyou to this point? a little bit of info is v helpful you dont have to say anything you dont want to. HUGS
     
  4. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Cry, scream, do what you feel...I know those chills...the ones that seem to freeze one's spirit...move, exercise, but most importantly, talk and let us know what is happening...J
     
  5. toopainfultolive

    toopainfultolive Well-Known Member

    my brother laugh at me for leeching off the family. he doesnt understand. I tried really but I dunno what's wrong that I can't find a job. It's getting harder to face ppl and I'm never good at meeting new ppl. It takes humps of courage to go to the job centre and ask for jobs. But then I always stutter in interviews and I never could look at their eyes. I'm feel like an idiot whenever I fail and he's always there to poke fun. I got mad at him, myself, tell him to go away and dump myself into the bathtub. Its horrible and painful. I thought I was a goner this time. Got out, didnt even dry my hair and just hid in bed. I'm a little better nw, after crying my eyes out and lying down. I'm afraid if he says one more word, i will really hurt myself.
     
  6. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Your brother sounds so unkind...so not listen to him; he has real problems..I am glad you are feeling a little better...keep moving...also, if you are having problems w/ communicating, maybe an evaluation to see if someone can help in the area of speech therapy would be indicated...so glad you posted...J
     
  7. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    you're right it does take courage to go to the job centre and try to find work so give yourself credit for doing this..
    and don't give up ok..

    it's pretty mean of your brother to make fun of you...please try to ignore his remarks
    are you able to talk to your parents about how you're feeling?
    *hug*
     
  8. toopainfultolive

    toopainfultolive Well-Known Member

    im still crying. I thought I won't cry anymore. I keep hearing my brother's words over and over in my mind. It hurts so much. The other day, he was laughing abt his friend who tried to commit suicide years ago. He says it's silly to kill yourself bcuz of something ur friends said and that the friend should really die frm behaving like that. I just feel so sad and scared. I dunno what I'm really afraid of. Just so broken and battered. I try telling my mum that I really don't like what he keep saying but my mum defended him. he's stressed up at work and that he's the sole breadwinner...i wish she can take my side for once and i fear that she actually thinks the same as my brother. i love my mum to bits. i will die for her but i cant do this. my heart hurts, im crying and i cant see the keyboard. i cant talk abt this anywhere else. i have no one to talk to this and im afraid of ppl brushing me off. why am i still alive? so to suffer? why am i even crying? im so embarrassed by my own actions. i really should just die. im so fucking useless. just let me die1!!!!!!
     
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