afraid to close my eyes - all i can see is my dead body
head is filled to overflowing with litany of failures, constantly reminding me that i am pathetic, worthless, unwanted, unneeded - it's an endless loop, always on, over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over
pressed myself against the window on the train because i was crying so much - person sitting next to me moved away in case i was infected or something
this is all there is - failure, pain, lonliness
now my brain is showing me all the options - i just have to pick one
i'm sorry - i know i'm just a waste of everyones' time and energy
i'm a horrible person - i deserve this pain but i don't want to feel it any more
i don't want to be a failure any more
i don't want to be a burden any more
i don't want to be lonely any more
but i'm never going to succeed
i'm never going to be anything other than worthless
i'm never going to know comfort
oblivion is calling my name - i can hear it - and i want to answer
head is filled to overflowing with litany of failures, constantly reminding me that i am pathetic, worthless, unwanted, unneeded - it's an endless loop, always on, over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over
pressed myself against the window on the train because i was crying so much - person sitting next to me moved away in case i was infected or something
this is all there is - failure, pain, lonliness
now my brain is showing me all the options - i just have to pick one
i'm sorry - i know i'm just a waste of everyones' time and energy
i'm a horrible person - i deserve this pain but i don't want to feel it any more
i don't want to be a failure any more
i don't want to be a burden any more
i don't want to be lonely any more
but i'm never going to succeed
i'm never going to be anything other than worthless
i'm never going to know comfort
oblivion is calling my name - i can hear it - and i want to answer