I was recently accepted into college, however, there are a few problems. - Uncertainty: I don't know anything about college or how it works and whatnot, nor do I know what major to go in. - Don't know if I have the mental strength or determination to go back to school. I had suicidal fantasy's and thoughts in 10th grade (that's as early as I can remember, dunno if I had any in 9th). I attempted suicide in 11th grade (was 16 at the time), then was planning to try again in 12th grade [with pretty much 99% guarantee success method] but then I transferred to a private school and things were a lot better since it was easy. - Math sucks, and I suck at it. I just have a feeling I'm going to go to college, hate then, then just kill myself. I would have killed myself long ago if I was able to legally purchase a gun, and now that I'm 19, I can buy rifles and shotguns, and have the money to do so.