The severe depression is coming back. Quite clearly loneliness is the root cause. So I moved to uni to start life again, it kind of worked in the sense of not feeling so depressed as often. I had my spells. Anyway now it has caught up with me into a constant problem. I still dont have a gf, this bgs me a lot and makes me lonely even when i am with people, i have never had a gf and i'm 21. I dont have a social life this semester, my friends dont want to go out with me, they just want girls nights out or in the most recent case to be with people who are actually good on nights out i guess. I spend far too long sitting a lone in my room. I need a gf, I need a life, I need to look forward to things, to going out. Part of my head spin is this trapped cycle. I need to get out, get out of it. I think about what I can move to, there is nothing, i am trapped and it makes things worse knowing/thinking that. I am on the brink of exploding, the anxiety is building and building and building it feels horrible.