It hasn't been an easy life for me since I came out to my family. And I say family though a minority of them don't know or won't accept the fact. I've dealt with hostility and discrimination in and outside of the family. It makes you wonder if life is actually worth living. Even if you have your husband by your side, would it be enough to deal with the evilness of the world against the gay community. That thought has lead me to many failed suicide attempts. Even after I found my loving boyfriend Ryan. He tries to keep me happy but whats the point of trying from the other side of the country. One day i hope to join him and be with him forever but first I have to ask myself that question. I think yes it is worth living and even more reason with my wonderful boyfriend by my side.