That's right, I WILL be ending my life very soon. It's about time to end this mistake of a "life" that frankly should've never happened. My parents weren't thinking AT ALL when they had me, but I don't blame them; they just did what 99% of the population does unlike the 1% who rule over us who use cold, hard LOGIC and common sense to rule over the rest of us. My parents were thinking short-term using their EMOTIONS to do what feels right at the time and then make self-righteous justifications for what they were going to do anyways, no matter HOW much it fucks up... and this fucking retarded societal pressure (in both the western AND most of eastern world except China) that tells you "OMG you're a LOSER of a parent if you have one kid or less!" This planet is over-populated anyways for this reason, and I am one of the many people who frankly should be wiped off of the face of the planet in order to free up some resources. I'm not good at anything, and I NEVER had anything going for me in the first place; I subconsciously knew this ever since I was a toddler. I can't do the simplest of things that ANY dull-normal pre-teen can do. That's fucking embarrassing, and a prime example as to why I should be eliminated. I'm so fucking sick of the western world's bi-polar obsession with acting like life is "fair" and "just" and "manageable" and "reasonable." Guess what!? I CALL FUCKING BULLSHIT ON THAT! Life is NOT those things... it's all about chaos, silent (non-racial) eugenics, dog-eat-dog competitions, unfairness, and good and bad luck. Fight or flight. Kill or be killed. That's how it is... don't get mad at me, NATURE made it this way, not me! I realize that all the bullies and jerks that picked on me back when I was a youngster had some truth to their poisonous insults that fucked me up for the rest of my life: I am ugly I am stupid I am annoying over 90% of the time I am unfunny and my sense of humor is weird and it sucks I smell bad most of the time I am too short and skinny I have bad taste in clothes, shoes, TV shows, music, and reading material I am unhireable at pretty much every job in the world I have the worst fucking singing voice in the world and it's both too high and too low and I sound gay when I talk Everything I do is a waste of time and everything I work at is all for nothing Women think of me as less than untreated sewage in every single aspect I am a 24 year old virgin and people think it's hilarious, disgusting, embarrassing, pathetic, and humiliating on my behalf I tell myself "FUCK YOU DAVID, YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT!" every single morning when I look in the mirror. These bullies (even friends of mine who happen to talk a lot of shit about me) taught me a very important lesson that my parents unfortunately never did... a friend of mine who is WAY smarter than me pointed this out on his blog, that hatred is the only true eternal emotion there is, because you can hate someone/something once and never love it. You can love them once, hate them later, and then hate them forever after that. Hate is all-encompassing, and the irony of that is that I hate it more than anything else in the world. Oh well, it'll be great to finally be freed from this prison called "life." I do have a couple of things I want to do before I die... such as make my own album (primarily as an epitaph) and go to Japan. Maybe lose my virginity, but if I don't, oh well. If it's time for me to die, it's time for me to die. Soon I will be ending my life at my own hands, and I will finally be free. That'll be the happiest day of my life; to finally correct a huge mistake my stupid fucking parents were too full of pride to ever apologize for or even ADMIT for fucks sake!