I've made an informed decision. I am definitely 100% going to commit suicide between now and next month. I'm just waiting for the right time, when I can be alone without being interrupted.I am not going to leave a note. Everyone will know why I did it anyway.I feel freakishly calm, looking forward to what I am about to do.I'm still unsure whether I will do it before or after christmas. I wish for my last days alive to be happy ones. God help me.