For the past few weeks, things started to get to me even more, the problems and the trauma I've been experiencing in my life have built up so much that I don't think I can handle my life anymore. I'm afraid, isolated and so hurt it's so unbearable. This is the time where I actually thought so long and hard and made up my mind to just end my life, I can't do this anymore.. I've been thinking of ways (even searched on the internet) of how to kill myself, that's how much I am really willing to do this, it's just that, I feel as though I can't do it alone, like I need someone to assist me in ending my own life because I can't watch myself slit my wrist or anything like that. The last time I attempted suicide was two weeks ago, I overdosed on <mod edit: methods> only to end up at a hospital, throwing up everyday and being treated for it, my Mom found out and called the parameds right away. <mod edit: methods> overdose didn't really work on me, I just want to find someone that would actually do the job.. only this time, I find that I can't do this on my own anymore, I would actually want someone there to MAKE SURE I really am dead. I'm so stuck..