I'm a really compeditive person. It gets pretty annoying. Anyway I go to this diet and exercise class (Probably not a good idea as pretty soon they'll want me to put on weight [[I hope anyway]] ) I only go cause a friend of mine wanted to lose weight and didn't want to go by herself. I jumped at the chance to lose weight. No surprise there then. It's just fucked things up even more now. 1. My friend lost double. Yes exactly double the amount I did. :cry2: That's not fair. I'm the sick one. I want to lose more than her. I want to be the thinnest. Now I feel sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fat. I hate this so much. How come other people can be so thin and I can't? I don't want to be "normal". I'm not pretty so I might as well be thin. grrrrr. This sucks so bad. 2. Now I'm concerned my friend is getting sick. Again not fair. This is mine. I don't want to share it. Mine!!! (I'm selfish I know. I'm not concerned about her, I'm just worried she'll get thinner than me). :cry2: She lost a stone in a matter of days so there's no question there's something wrong. I hate this! I wish I could be happy I've lost weight. I'm not. I'm dissappointed some-one lost more than me. I'm panicing over how much I can lose in 2 weeks before I go on hoilday. I'm worrying that I'm gonna have to eat more today. And not exercise. :cry2: I wish I could feel happy again.