Hi, Something has been bothering me lately; I have a really good friend that I've known a while and I love her a lot, but a lot of the time I become completely apathetic towards everything - I'm mean even to her and later I feel like complete crap because it's not what I'm like, and I don't understand what does that to me. When I become apathetic I generally hop on a video game and play but very very poorly because I don't care about the game either. During those times I wouldn't hesitate to tell her to go away and never talk to me again. She's the most wonderful understanding and caring person I have ever met and I don't want to push her away; as hard as it seems to be with her I'm scared I'll manage it soon enough and I really don't want to. When she talks about things that are important to her I make obnoxious remarks that probably just make her feel humiliated and worthless. She's never done a thing wrong and when I go through these phases she's always on the wrong end of it and I don't want to treat her that way anymore but can not do anything about it, it seems. Any advice? Thanks.