Complete nonsense.

[lil-sis-one-of-two]

I am so fucking pissed off
Why was I born? I hate my life i have nothing to show for my 20 years.
There is no point to all this.
I just wish I could just end it but I cant even get that right.
Reading this back I sound so pathetic, I am a wast of space if I could make someone live that deserves it I would happily die myself.
I just dont want to be here anymore, no one in my life understands, my boyfriends thinks I am just been silly and gets angry with me.
MY parents dont even know there is anything wrong
I just dont see the point anymore.
I am just ranting now so I will stop.
I want my baby back!!!!!!!!!
I want to die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[theresalwaystomorrow]

Twenty years isn't all that long. I'm twenty, as well. I'm sure you've done plenty of good things, even if they're all really small. Holding doors open, letting older people sit down on the bus. At twenty no one really has anything to show. You likely have sixty years ahead of you; plenty of time to achieve anything.

You've done something right by posting on this board. You are not a waste of space. No one is a waste of space. You don't sound pathetic; you sound like someone who needs a little bit of help. And by posting you've given yourself a way to get it, even just in some tiny way. That in itself makes you a great person. Not everyone can reach out. But you have.

Not everyone can understand. Even spouses and partners. Sometimes they're the least objective because they don't want to know. They don't want to accept that something is wrong with someone so close. You said your parents don't know. You could try telling them. There could be a whole area of support there waiting for you.

I'm sorry for your loss. I hope you start feeling better soon.