I think I am going insane, or being really mentally manipulated from different sides. I don't know whom to trust anymore, including my own perceptions of reality. Things are escalating in my life, depression and all that aside, I am in a real huge mess. I am almost forced to change and become even more withdrawn because of the conflicting facts all around me. Am I with an objectively insane person or am I with a person who is a victim of conspiracies and manipulations? I don't know how to act but I don't trust anyone anymore. I don't know if I am so deep in something I see everything completely twisted or what. If I talk to anyone it will hurt at least someone. I feel completely trapped. I am not trying to be mysterious here, but explaining the situation almost feels dangerous and it is too complicated and almost trivial cause it just portrays the bigger picture, and that is that I feel I wish everything would stop, that everyone forgets I exist and that I can forget this whole mess. I want to escape from everything until I fix my own mind, I really feel Im in a Twilight Zone. I don't know I just had to vent somewhere. I started feeling evil. I feel I am in a situation where only something terrible would have to happen for me to get out. I don't even know what I'm trying to say, I am just trying to figure out who is insane, who shouldn't be trusted, and I don't know where I stand myself. I am completely conflicted inside between the two parts of me that are so opposite I feel I cant move or decide what to be. I need magic to save myself.