I'm the person that you always see smiling, laughing and acting like everything is okay. I bet not one person, even my best friend and roommate would ever guess I was suicidal or even depressed. I keep a front up so I don't inconvenience anyone.. I don't want to bother any one with my problems or feelings. But every day, I just think of ways I could just disappear from the world and leave everything behind.. Without hurting anyone else. Is it wrong to think of ways to die without making it look like I did it on purpose? I want to leave, escape from all my miseries without causing misery to anyone else. I have a caring family, and some supporting friends. But no one will ever understand the constant hurt that I feel. I just wish I could just disappear and no one would notice.