I haven't spoken to anyone in days. if I go out I am just ignored by people even when I go up talking to them they pretend Im not there. Its at the stage now where if I killed myself nobody would notice. Im finished college for the year and have f all to do all day. i can see myself turning to alcohol if things dont get better even though I cant drink much with my meds. I hate myself so much tonight I cant even have a drink. Ive lived around here most of my life yet when people see me they pretend im not there. even when i post on facebook nobody talks to me. I cant go on like this. I was seeing as counsellor and she said she found it hard to believe that nobody speaks to me. My father was very wealthy and of gentry but he didnt want me so i got adopted illegally by a very bad family. They tortured and abused me even as an adult. I offered to bring my mother shopping and when she thought i couldnt hear her she was telling everyone how much she hated me. i have since broke all contact with them, they dont know if im even still alive yet they have made no efforts to see if im ok. i thought by starting college again i would make new friends but everyone around the campus laughs at me and thinks im a freak.