I am not this person you all think I am. I am selfish, extremely so. I am wanting of attention. I am me; this messed up, sad, hurting and confused person. But I am also bad. Plain & simple. So many of you have been good to me, for that I am extremely grateful. Thank you for your words, compassion and comfort. I feel so guilty putting demands on your time and energies. We all have our own struggles, so why should I be special? I will always end up hurting you. Whomever you may be. Always. Its just not worth it to communicate with me, end of story. And I can't at this time, I just can't. And I feel awful I cannot support those of you who have supported me. I should be able to be there for you. And even this thread is more of the same I suppose - however much in disguise I might try to make it. I am sorry, so sorry.