Confessions: Stuff I Find Hard To Live With

[DrownedFishOnFire]

Why do you think you've committed a crime?

Its against the law in this side of the world. Almost 4 decades I think I am ok with things I was not ok with long time ago being a self-righteous person with morals and ethics right out of college. Working for a corrupt company I am no longer the same person I was when I started and believe in street justice. I bend the rules to my own needs and wants. Screw the justice system here. It aint fair and just. And im from Illinois. Corruption here is rampant.

 

[DrownedFishOnFire]

I seen on Reddit a guy had a fetish to infect himself, and late others, with parasites. Anyone have a similar story?

That sounds about right what you read on reddit


like a covid parties being held all over the world for that herd immunity right now.... people refusing to wear masks infecting many others, people spitting at cops hoping they die from it....

Sounds like people purposefully having sex in order to transmit AIDS to their partners not giving two fucks about the damage.

Sounds like tapeworm some people will sell to others PURPOSELY ingest in order to lose massive amount of weight.


People really are weird in many good and bad ways. I hope others can chime in.

 

[1964dodge]

by the way it's true that you can lose massive amounts of weight by swallowing a tapeworm. i saw it on a show called a 1000 ways to die. she swallowed a lot of weight then died because the tape work grew too big...mike....

 

[KM76710]

This never hurt anybody in the long term but often just to freak them out I'd pretend Id was dead

What's up with what's going down
In every city, in every town
Cramping styles is the plan
They've got us in the palm of every hand
When we pretend that we're dead
When we pretend that we're dead
They can't hear a word we've said
When we pretend that we're dead
Come on, come on, come on, come on
Come on, come on, come on, come on
Come on, come on, come on, come on
Come on, come on, come on come on
Turn the tables with our unity
They neither moral nor majority
Wake up and smell the coffee
Or just say no to individuality
When we pretend that we're dead (pretend that we're dead)
When we pretend that we're dead (pretend that we're dead)
They can't hear a word we've said (pretend that we're dead)
When we pretend that we're dead (pretend that we're dead)
Come on, come on, come on, come on
Come on, come on, come on, come on
Come on, come on, come on, come on
Come on, come on, come on come on
When we pretend that we're dead (pretend that we're dead)
When we pretend that we're dead (pretend that we're dead)
They can't hear a word we've said (pretend that we're dead)
When we pretend that we're dead (pretend that we're dead)
Come on, come on, come on, come on
Dead (pretend that we're dead)
Dead (come on, come on, come on, come on)
Dead (pretend that we're dead)
Dead (come on, come on, come on, come on)
Dead (pretend that we're dead)
Dead (come on, come on, come on, come on
Dead (pretend that we're dead)
Dead (come on, come on, come on, come on)
Dead (pretend that we're dead)
Dead (come on, come on, come on, come on)
Dead (pretend that we're dead)
Dead (come on, come on, come on, come on)
Dead (pretend that we're dead)
Dead (come on, come on, come on, come on)
Dead (pretend that we're dead)

Quite familiar with L7. Suzi Gardner is some kind of cousin of mine one of those whatever number cousin where we share great grandparents or great great along those lines. I prefer Shitlist though. LOL

 

[Gonz]

I prefer Shitlist though. LOL

That was on the Natural Born Killers soundtrack, which I used to listen to over and over again, and would still hold up as one of the weirdest/best musical compilations ever released. Great song.

 

[HappyKitty]

But that's the thing, I no longer have a soul to unburden as it was sold years ago.

Most of what I have done, shall always remain cloaked in darkness that will haunt only but myself.

well, Ashie says it all.

 

[LOSTINSIGHT]

very interesting and tempting topic.
I had something written but i bottled it last minute .nothing ide be in court for but in future law making probably .

 

[Gonz]

Okay, since no one else is confessing anything serious, I'll get the ball rolling.

I used to run a little backwoods middle of nowhere motor lodge where I would often turn my guests into sausages to feed to future guests.

It takes all kinds of critters to make Farmer Gonz's fritters.

But, in the end, my real sin was that my meat was loaded with... preservatives.

 

[Wispiwill]

You want a confession? Here's mine -

I'm a fraud.

I pretend to the people here that I'm fighting to live - to keep going day by day for the sake of my family - but it's all a lie that I tell myself to make myself feel better. To pretend to myself that I'm a good person. It's not true. I'm not fighting to live. I'm fighting to die - I'm just too much of a coward to do it myself.

I think about it, dream about it, research and plan - even practice at times. But I know I'll never go through with it because I don't have the strength of will. I make excuses that something isn't right or I'm thinking of my family but it's lies. I'm just a coward. And I despise myself for my cowardice.

There are people here that need genuine help. That are on the edge, ready to fall off. But I don't. It doesn't matter how much I let the darkness take me - I'll never fall far enough to cross that line. No matter how much I want it. I can't do it.

I can't change who I am. I can't change what I am. I can't accept who and what I am. I do my best to pretend to be a decent human being but I know, deep down that I'm not. And I feel guilty. Guilty for being here and taking time and attention away from people that actually need it. For pretending that I have some knowledge or insights into things when you are all fighting to live. You're all trying so hard to be better - to be more. And all I want is for the darkness to take me and let me die because I'm too weak to do it myself.

I don't want to be saved. I want to be lost.

Make of it what you will. Take care.

 

[Aurelia]

Okay, since no one else is confessing anything serious, I'll get the ball rolling.

I used to run a little backwoods middle of nowhere motor lodge where I would often turn my guests into sausages to feed to future guests.

It takes all kinds of critters to make Farmer Gonz's fritters.

But, in the end, my real sin was that my meat was loaded with... preservatives.

This post is the highlight of my day.

 

[MisterBGone]

I should’ve probably given my self up - a long time ago . . . . ; )__~*^|•> )...( = b/c of all the ‘bad things,’ I’ve done! Paraphrasing: from “The Bad Slerp Well,” I think.. it could be from a different one ☝️( ; now or was ut, ‘i should’ve made up my mind to have given myself up ... da da dadada? ? ! ~*~ & then this wouldn’t have happened— ahh..! (^:

 

[Aurelia]

Okay, here's a confession. I've stolen thousands of dollars from my own family as well as thousands more worth of shit from stores. Do I regret it, though? Not particularly.

 

[JMG]

^ Just wanted to say, thank you! For posting that! It seems to be the only true confession that's been posted in here so far lol. I admire not only that you confessed that but also that you were honest about not regretting it. No judgement from me on it at all either btw (and no, not only cos it would make me a complete hypocrite if I did lol) only respect for the guts to admit those things.

I understand why it's hard for some people to admit to the bad things they've done, but I do kinda ultimately agree w/ the OP that since this is online it's somewhat anonymous so in a way that makes it a bit easier. I suppose I'll say some of the worst things I've done here that I seriously regret, but god before I do I ask that no one judge me please because some of the things I will be confessing to I did when I was a kid. I probably still shoulda known better & I still feel guilty about them to this day and wonder if they make me a really bad person or something but they are absolutely not things I would ever do again in any case. I think it's good if a person at least learns from whatever bad/sinful things they might have done. Ok well here's some of my worst things I've done in my life, one of them is kinda similar to the above confession.

- I have not stolen from my family I'm glad to say, but I have stolen things from stores before. I wish I could say it's been at least a decade or more but it has been less than that (the last time I did it that is). I think it makes it slightly better that I'm not a rich bitch doing it (sorry if I sound judgemental saying that, it's jealousy more than anything since I'm NOT a rich...person...lol. I don't think I'm a bitch either but people who are rich AND bitchy just really bother me a lot, I'm trying to let that kind of crap go though cos I know it's pointless for me to let myself get sucked into feeling upset about such things.)

Anyway I've stolen from at least 4 or more stores in my lifetime, and the first time I ever stole something from a store I was 9 years old. It wasn't alone that time it was with a friend and I think we were kinda bad influences on each other. We didn't steal anything super valuable it was just some toys we wanted and we ended up having to return them when we unwisely both showed them to a friend the next day after we'd stolen them, and told her that we'd stolen them. I got in quite a bit of trouble for it from my parents, teacher, principal and the store person we had to return the toys to. I didn't do it again from a store after that for a lot of years (was in my late teens I think) at least, but I still stole some other things. Again, never things that were very valuable overall, just books or things like that.

I don't think I was ever doing it out of any kind of klepto type of thing though, it was pretty much always because it was something I genuinely wanted and had no other way of getting. Not a good "reason" I know but I'm just confirming it's not a case of being klepto or anything like that.

- This isn't really a "confession" so much as just something I regret and feel guilty about in some ways. It's basically just all the times I've ever said way too much and not always in the nicest way (had to be pretty damn upset to get to that point, I know that doesn't excuse it in any way but I'm just saying esp. when it comes to online/written communication I try much HARDER to be more thoughtful with how I say things) online. It hasn't been too often overall but I feel bad that it's something I can even say has "ever" happened. I envy those who are able to stay cool & calm and never seem to react to anything that happens. I know there's good and bad to each way of being but ya I definitely wish I could go back in time and just not have said certain things. Who knows though, maybe in the cases where it's really had upsetting consequences (loss of some kind usually) it's been an accident waiting to happen anyway.

- In the past when I've pretended to feel a certain way about someone when I really didn't. Well it wasn't that black and white I guess, it wasn't that I didn't "at all" but just...maybe not as much as I tried to make it like I did if that makes sense. The reasons I could do such a thing to begin with stem hugely from extreme fear and insecurity that I've felt for pretty much my whole life. Doing those things definitely never came from a place of having bad intentions though which I think does make it at least a bit better. It was never ultimately about the other person though, the reasons were always purely selfish. Again I know that does not excuse treating another person in such a way and it is absolutely something I am working very hard on. Often people who can bring themselves to do such a thing to another person are just struggling with their own feelings about themself and what they really think and feel about themselves. I don't think a person who does such a thing as this deserves judgement ultimately, especially if they are at least able to seriously recognize that it's not a good thing and is something they really want to change and are working as hard as they can to change it.

Well I think those are enough extremely unflattering things that I've revealed about myself for now lol.
Very interested to see if anyone else will make any serious confessions here or not.

 

[Paisley]

Dated a 38 year old at 16. Looking back on it, pretty fucked up.

 

[Sunspots]

Dated a 38 year old at 16. Looking back on it, pretty fucked up.

That even beats me, I dated a 29 year old when I was 14. My parents were not impressed which made it all the more appealing.

 

[KindaOtiose]

Dated a 38 year old at 16. Looking back on it, pretty fucked up.

That even beats me, I dated a 29 year old when I was 14. My parents were not impressed which made it all the more appealing.

Oh man.... where do you even find these guys (or gals...)? That's messed up on the adult's behalf.

 

[Sunspots]

where do you even find these guys

He was the caretaker at my school. Yeah, that probably broke the rules...

 

[KindaOtiose]

He was the caretaker at my school. Yeah, that probably broke the rules...

Wow... that's messed up. If any physical intimacy happened that probably broke many laws. I hope it didn't affect you .

 

[Auri]

Argh, I know too many people on SF on a personal level now to answer to this thread. :p But I did some messed up things that I find very hard to live with and it's not likely to ever improve. *sigh*

 

[Sunspots]

Wow... that's messed up. If any physical intimacy happened that probably broke many laws. I hope it didn't affect you .

I only went out with him so he could get me into pubs and clubs but all he ever wanted to do was talk about cars. I dumped him after a few weeks