Hi everyone. I am not sure what to do with my life. I spend about a year living as a recluse and I don't like it. Problems, oh yes I have lots of problems. It's also a shame that I am still living with my parents, having no life. I avoid the outside world because I have low esteem and I am ugly. People my age shouldn't be losing their hair prematurely like me and someone even told me how ugly I am with my soon-to-be-bald head, that hurts me significantly. I have no social life, used to have a little but it all gone sour and I decided not to hang out with them because they were very cruel to me at the end. I tried killing myself lately and didn't succeed in it at all. I am sure a loser. I am in debts. I don't have my own car. I am talentless. I am hopeless in education. I am broke. My parents are a bunch of morons. I am dependent on others. I have no love life (I always wanted to have another gay partner). I am unemployed. I have no privacy at all (parents coming into my room whenever the fuck they life, tried to explain to them but they fucked me up). I also wanted to see the therapist to solve my grim problems but I am penny-less and my stupid parents are the only one who could take me to see a therapist because they have all the healthcare benefits from work. I am just sitting around, awaiting for them to change their attitudes in seeing a therapist. Currently, I am starving myself and hopefully to death. I got to battle my natural survival instinct to not eat.