I'm just so confused at the moment, there's constent conflict in my head. the state of my mind I don't expect anyone to understand the way I care for myself its not shocking I'm left of the shelf My mind is a maze, unsure which way to go one way could help me, but its slow one way takes me to the road of hell and the last way tells me to rebel. The fights within my mind leave me feeling confined west side argues its time to go south side says why not try to grow west side shouts it was ur fault south sides scresms it was assult west side tells me I'm to blame south side tells me Its not my shame West side tells me to cut south sides tells me to kick it in in the butt. West side screams ur have to be hurt South side shouts ur not dirt West side whispers let me win south side whispers it wasn't ur sin. West side bellows u never said no South side bellows u would have received a blow West side screams you have no friends South side screams its ur defends West side screams ur a freak South side screams ur not u find it difficult to speak West side shouts no1 will miss you south side shouts u will get through West side shouts no1 will notice ur not around south side shouts ur hurting deep down. West side shouts shut up southside southside whispers, I tried but was denied. i'm sorry that I can't talk in sentances, I'm told that life can be great but you have to want it to be...trust me I wanted life to be great, I wanted to be free, I wanted to feel, I wanted to like who I was, I wanted to break the chains that hold so tight. But inside has just died, I'm breathing but not living, i'm walking but not feeling...I didn't wake up one morning and say today I will di*, yes I have taken an overdose on impulse but the thoughts were there before, when you don't go a day without thinking that lifes too big to deal with, the lonelyness is to lonely, the damage is unrepairable, life wasn't meant to be.