Ideas & Opinions Conflicting desires

[IRE1992]

• Would probably wear band shirts all the time drawing of drawing attention to myself.
• Like mostly cult films and alternative music etc. but want to be 'normal' .
• Have tried /made progress multiple time towards going back to university always withdraw at last minute because simultaneously crave security and stability.

Anybody else share the above or similar?

 

[ChimeraMonster]

Oh yeah, it seems like social anxiety I'm my opinion. Its like you are a extroverted person, but the traumas of the social life shunned you in. You want to be part, but are afraid of failing again.

 

[PrincessPure]

I think so...
I wanted to be a mother at 30-31ish, i always had thought of it that way. Ever since I was in middle school i had it planned. And all of sudden I decided I wanna go to medical school. Im in my 2nd year now and will graduate around 29-30. A newly graduated student who lives abroad and has NOTHING from herself is most probably not ready to have a child lol. So i kinda f**ked that dream up, although im gonna be 30 in 5 years and i hope its still possible. Funny thing is, i yet have to find the dad.

I wanna be a strong independent woman sometimes, but i hate it most of the time. I wanna be somebody's princess. Im in med school but think of becoming a stay at home mom. I wanna be hugged and have everyone be kind to me and pay a lot of attention to me but i escape to a really quiet library everyday to be away from everyone then end up crying bc i feel lonely. In general you might say im a spoiled brat. But tbh i dont think i care. I may be even a bit proud of it, the only bad thing is the mental unstability bothering myself.

 

[KM76710]

Option number 2 is one I can identify with. I have so often like cult films more than the mainstream and more popular ones that are out.