Hello
Im ashamed to even post here (cause I haven't got a traumatic life or something like that) Im just really really confuged, I feel like I want to die, everything seems so empty in my life. It feels like Im all alone, I do have friends and family, but it just feels like they don't want me, that is the thing that I don't understand, is it because they really don't want me, or because I just feel like they don't need me.
Im at a point that I hate myself SO bad, I cant even look at myself.
Damn it feels so stupid. I have already made the decission that I want to die, it's just that I can't do this to my family. I wrote several "goodbey" letters but trew all of them away, I also thought about how it's going to happen.
I just can't go through another Christmas and newyears eve, surrounded by all these happy people and feeling do damn empty and sad. I hate these kind of days.
Im sorry this all may sound stupid and pathetic or wathever, it is just how I feel. I just wanted to tell some people how I feel,
Sorry for my bad english Im not from an english speaking country
Im ashamed to even post here (cause I haven't got a traumatic life or something like that) Im just really really confuged, I feel like I want to die, everything seems so empty in my life. It feels like Im all alone, I do have friends and family, but it just feels like they don't want me, that is the thing that I don't understand, is it because they really don't want me, or because I just feel like they don't need me.
Im at a point that I hate myself SO bad, I cant even look at myself.
Damn it feels so stupid. I have already made the decission that I want to die, it's just that I can't do this to my family. I wrote several "goodbey" letters but trew all of them away, I also thought about how it's going to happen.
I just can't go through another Christmas and newyears eve, surrounded by all these happy people and feeling do damn empty and sad. I hate these kind of days.
Im sorry this all may sound stupid and pathetic or wathever, it is just how I feel. I just wanted to tell some people how I feel,
Sorry for my bad english Im not from an english speaking country