Well I made a thread about this a few weeks ago but the post was so long I don't think anyone looked at it lol. Well in a nutshell broke up with my ex in october because I was a jerk and pushed her away all the time and it just made her unhappy. Since then I have been involved in one other relationship did not last long only a month and it was only sex. k anyway after my ex and I broke up I used to contact her alot and she would just tell me it was over and blah blah blah basically being a heartless bitch. 2 weeks ago we started talking to me I initiated the conversation we just talked about everything about the fun times we had about how when we would fall asleep together I would steal her blanket lol just silly things and we flirted a lot. Anyways after about 3 hours of talking she said she did not want to be with me yet as we were to far away from eachother (she moved to the states to years ago I am from the UK) and also she did not think I had changed. So yesterday I emailed her asking her if we could be friends she said this : Also right now don't think of what could have happened if we did certain shit because we didn't or we did too much and that's why we are here. Again I don't know what will happen. I do care about you and I always will, I think that's normal for people to still have a little bit of connection they dated for a long time, especially after having sex. I think I will always care about you a little. I'm just afraid to be friends right now see I kinda tried it when we were just talking but then it just got carried away. I don't think we could just be "friends" at the moment. I'm not saying we will never be friends but right now it would be too hard. I then asked if she felt lonely she said this : I said it was a long story and I didn't want to talk about it at the moment. I have to be getting to bed I have to be up earlier because of a quartet I'm in. We perform at 12:30 so I have to be there at 12. Now what confuses me is she told me she still loved me a few weeks ago then she wanted nothing to do with me. She says we can't be friends but we have never tried. Also when I asked her if she was lonely she told me she wasn't but told me that it was a long story and told me she didn't want to talk about it. See with her she would tell me everything and I would do the same. But here she doesn't tell me anything but instead tells me exactly what she is doing the next day. What I am asking is should I just take this as she does not want to be with me at all. She is confusing me it is especially confusing because in myself I love her more then anything and I just desperately want their to be a chance for us. Tell me where do I go from here wtf should I do? If you did read this ty if not please read it this is something that causes me to lose sleep and peace and mind over.