Confused and alone

Discussion in 'Family, Friends and Relationships' started by Lonelygirl16, Feb 4, 2016.

  1. Lonelygirl16

    Lonelygirl16 New Member

    I don't know where to begin this is my first time on a forum. Well i have been in a relationship for 9yrs now i made so many mistakes over and over again in the 9yrs although we are still together and i love him with all my heart unconditionally. I just feel like no matter what i do to make it to him it will never be good enough because he always thinks i'm lying to him when i'm telling him the truth and it hurts so much and having to deal with everything else in my life on top of having no friends and caring for our child with no time to myself. I have been suicidal for the last 15yrs off and on but for the last 6yrs it's been very constant like thats all i can think about and the thought of him leaving me is hurting he is the only person i can talk to my best friend. I don't know what to do anymore.
  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    Hi there and welcome to the forum and the site. I am sorry for what you are going through, certainly sounds like a lot you have to keep inside bottled up. Can you talk to your boyfriend about this, it just might make you that much closer? You also need to get well for your child as well. Please see a professional, starting with your general doctor would be fine to start with. You don't deserve to be walking around and having all of this inside you, it just doesn't seem fair. I feel you are a good person but believe me, we all make mistakes and it's up to him whether to believe you or not, talking about things openly might make the circle of trust even stronger, good luck to you and I am sorry that I only saw this thread now.