I don't know where to start and I feel pathetic that I feel this way. I found this website because it did pop up when I was looking for painless way to die. I find what I'm going through really hard and frustrating at the same time...a big part of me has no desire to be alive and I feel like it's the best option and at the same time I'm the bread winer in my family so I think of how unfair it would be on them which makes it even more hard because there's an inner conflict that I have. Death feels for me right now like a good option, just to end it all but I have to live for the sake of others and I'm not coping. I did get professional help but that didn't last too long.