I'm not an overly religious person or anything so don't be afraid to keep reading. LOL. I believe in God and I talk to Him every night. I also believe in Hell and I think that suicide is the ultimate sin. I'm sooo afraid of going to Hell that it's the main reason I don't think I'll ever attempt suicide. I had a great childhood. I didn't do well in school due to my own laziness, but I had a good time. But somewhere it all crumbled for me. I've been depressed for most of my life. (I'm 28, BTW.) A few years ago I was diagnosed with Major Depression. I think I also have anxiety and OCD. Hopefully I'll be back in therapy again soon. I only went for about 6 months and that was four years ago. I'm hoping to have insurance soon. Anyway, sorry this is so long-winded. I just wanted to share a little background info with you guys. I think about overdosing on pills constantly. I have breakdowns every so often where I feel miserable, I cry uncontrollably, and I beg God to end my suffering. I make myself feel better by imagining ways to end it. What's wrong with me?