Part of my extreme depression and suicide thoughts are how others treat each other in this world! I feel bad for the people that will find me! I still have that much of a heart barely left over! I have two ways that are a for sure deal it Is just messy .. Should I care? I am sure people will say yes definitely .. But they can go on with there lives and I will be free. Cops have there jobs for reasons like this and have training and have access to proper mental health help if needed ! I am sorry for anyone that would be effected but the peace and quiet my mind will feel finally is worth it in my mind..