Having a few unsettling thoughts right now. I can't be anyone but myself. This is true. But I'm slowly discovering more and more that being myself is being more and more unacceptable. I'm fighting to convince myself to persevere, yet I'm not sure I have the energy or the mental strength to keep going. I know I would hurt a lot of people, but I'm equally sure that 99.9% of them hurt me by not allowing me to be me, or by knocking most of what I say into being about them (my mum did exactly that 3 hours ago). So I'm torn. Continue to get hurt myself or hurt others. When in theory i'd rather do neither.