hey, I don't think so... or maybe I have but just can't remember it at the moment, my mind's kinda fuzzy. I bet a lot of people have been through that though, I think there have been times when I've found it hard to pinpoint what I truly feel. I find writing things down can help me figure it out. Sometimes I write paragraphs and paragraphs and then I figure it out whilst writing. I think just do the best you can with whatever you feel, and eventually the answer will come to you. Maybe it's apathy? denial? mixed feelings? detachment? Sounds like typical depression, I'm sorry. I hope you feel better soon. I'm sure people will be forgiving if they're good people ♥