As I've grown into adolescence I've come to be more confused about things I feel like sexually and sentimentally. And it's eating away at me. I've had these feelings towards boys that I don't want. At school I've had multiple crushes on boys. And I had to push them back because these aren't anything I want. I've never had the same kind of feelings for girls and it makes me think why not. I've had multiple people ask me straight-forward if I am or not even by my gay or bi friends. I've even been insulted with the same words that refer to it. I've denied it over and over because I can't be. I'm just confused. Something must've put me off girls or something. Really sometimes these feelings don't bother me so much but then later I get disgusted by them and more so after since I wasn't the same before. I'm more disgusted that I've acted on these feelings and kissed multiple boys though with nothing intended or any relationship in sight. More as a gag. I've kissed 1:3 ratio of girls to boys with one girl I didn't even know that well. I'm confused. Because I don't want these feelings and I think probably something happened to make these feelings come up. If they did I can make them go away if I know what did but I'm not sure what could've happened.