At the moment, I'm very confused. I've always put on this mask, I guess. To fend off the world or whatever. But I think I've been wearing it too long? I don't know. I just don't feel like I can feel anything anymore. I mean, I laugh. But aren't you supposed to feel happy or something when you laugh? I guess that doesn't make much sense. I just kind of feel like I'm running through the motions and everything around me is just static. Though I'd like to say I hate it, I just... I don't know. I just don't feel anything anymore. I'd rather be dead than to feel nothing at all.