I have good friends, a job ( although be it in a factory ), decent GCSE's, a loving mother and a father with a short fuse and bad temper ( although i guess he still loves me ) (they are also split up but that doesnt bother me in the slightest) , hoping to go live in Sweden soon to see what its like and stuff... so its not like my life is particularly bad or anything... but there is an emmense gaping emptiness in me, sometimes i just feel so depressed and consider suicide... I've never mentioned it to any1 appart from on these boards. From my limited experience I've found that I am really happy when getting to know a girl - not like i just want a fuck type of thing like i want to care for her and make her happy and stuff, making some1 else happy makes me more happy kind of thing. But like since my 1st and only love i've tried to make efforts with girls i have liked, but they never liked me back or anything like that which made me feel so alone and depressed. But i don't understand why it makes me feel so bad? other people get on fine being single, how can not being with some1 make me feel so depressed to the point of killing myself - does my situation sound similar to any1 else or am i just wierd in some way? I know you're all going to say oh you'll find the girl of your dreams someday or something like that but life isn't always like a fairy tale, and even if i do how long will i have to wait and keep going through this thoroughly demoralising and confidence crushing feeling, what if i have already killed myself by then?