I am sooo confused my life is shit at the moment and i want to be happy so i am contemplating sh or worse but at the same time i know i have good things coming my way i just don't know if i get my feelings sorted out in time. I just want to cry all the time. I want to get better but i know in a year i will be back in the same position. I wonder if it is worth it to feel the same in a year or feel worse and how much more can i go through. :sigh: