Im angry at myself. Everyday i go through a rollercoaster of emotions. At the end of the day i just want it to end. I know i have a social anxeity problem. Ive had it since i was younger. I went to look for someone to help diagnose me.. i cant afford it... It makes me depressed and i cant help but think that if i have to live with it.... Maybe i dont want to live at all... than i hate who i am. Not just who i am, but what i look like. I hate my husband, hes a disapointment to me. Everything goes on my shoulders, all the responsibilities. The bills. The cleaning. The cooking. Watching the little one. Go to work and come home. Hit start again. Than i forget about it, but it always comes back the next day. I feel like im all over the place and my head wants to explode.