I know I need help, but I can't seem to reach out for it. I don't want to die, but I am afraid to tell anyone that it is all I think about. I think i need to be in the hospital, but at the same time I am embarrassed about needing that. I don't know who to turn to, I feel so alone and helpless and in so much pain. I just keep cutting myself trying to make myself feel better, but it is not working. I feel so alone.