Scum, I haven't spoken to you personally, I've only seen you around the forum and maybe once or twice in chat and I don't get that impression AT ALL. Quite the opposite. You seem like a nice person, and you're being too harsh on yourself and I'm sure others would agree with me. If you want a chat anytime about anything you're welcome to PM me. :hug:
I am not sure why you are so hard on yourself but others do not see you like that. I am not sure what to say to make you feel better but you strike me as a person with a kind soul. I hope you can see that in you one day.
I need to believe in souls. If there are no souls then Loom and Goo are gone. I need to believe they are still here otherwise I am truly alone. There is no point to life, and death will arrive sharpish if there are no souls or spirits or anything.
Right now all I want to do is rip myself apart, or OD. But no, wait until I can do a decent job, until I can't bear to not do it. Wait for my actions to kill me.
Be with my friends, be it in a place, or be it nothing. I don't care.
I DON'T FUCKING CARE ANYMORE JUST MAKE THIS BLOODY SHIT END!
I disagree with your opinion of yourself but I do agree that you have the right to feel that way. From what I've read of you, in posts and PMs, I think you're a lovely person and I'm glad to know you. I am sorry that you feel so badly and hope that your feelings become more positive toward yourself.
sending you love and hugs and hope for better days,