Hello- I really want to cut right now. I have what I need to do it and I really want to but at the same time I know that I should not do it. I dont know what to do I cant make the pain go away. I am constantly thinking about everything that makes me depressed and makes me want to cut and no matter how hard I try I just cant get my mind off those things. I dont know maybe its my time to go maybe I should just let go and just do it, I dont know I am just so done with my life. I feel so worthless. I just don't know what to do. I want to cut so bad. I think about it all the time. I am sick of the abuse I take everyday. I just sit there and take it I guess I deserve it. No ones cares that I am being abused. I just want to give up and be done with this life. I am sick of everything. I hate school I don't like being home when I go to school I don't let anything show at all I don't have friends I keep everyone at arms length because if I don't and I actually tell anyone everything they will make fun of me and tell me that my life is not that bad and judge me. Then I end up going home and thinking about suicide. I have been let down to many times now I am afraid to talk about anything in detail. No one knows everything about me NO ONE not even my counselor who I have known for almost 3 years. I am loosing hope...... Whatever, Goodbye.