I am new here and reading other's threads I ask myself why I am having these thoughts. While there is a pattern of suicide attempts in my family, I have a good life; a decent job, people that love me and yet I constantly have the urge to do myself in. I have a particular method that plagues me, no matter how my day is going, the thoughts come to me. I get the thoughts, explain to myself why it is not an optimal solution and yet the thoughts remain and feed on themselves. Does anyone else have experience/thoughts on this that may give me insight? There is no reason for me to feel this way. I can't imagine it a subconscious cry for attention when the method that plagues me is quite final.