Constant failure-that's the actual title, sorry for the typo. Hi, I'm Dan, I'm posting because I think the people on this forum will understand me more than most people can. Right now I'm not feeling too bad so what I type will probably not give a full impression of how I feel. Maybe over time as I post people will understand more. This isn't self pitying, I just want to say where I am in depression and why and well I want to see what you people have to say. I guess the main reasons for my depression has been relationships, family, stress and my mind. I am way too sensitive. Now while this has been a benefit in my relationships generally it also means I take jokes far too seriously. People can hurt me really badly without realising it. I brood and hold things close and think deeply on what people said or did and why. I'm in therapy but my last session was quite a while because I missed the last one because I was ill. My next is on the 23rd. I have a sense of complete self-loathing, I can admire certain parts of me but what use is any qualities I may have if I want to kill myself. Ultimatly my happiness is pointless because it always go back to unhappiness. I'm alot happier than I was last year due to me opening up far more about my depression but I am still seriously suicidal. I've cut five times, normally after a particularly low point. I write quite alot of poetry to release my pain and it normally helps. I've never dealt with breakups in relationships particularly well. I don't really know what else to say right now but I'll keep on posting. Feel free to ask any questions you want to.