Me and my girlfriend recently broke up wednesday. It was a 3 year relationship, and the break up was my fault to begin with. I kept promising her I would change, I promised her I would lighten up. I didn't and it wore down on her until she couldn't take it no more, I tried my best to keep my sanity, had to stay home thursday because I was in a shock. She said she will take me back when I change, I can tell she was being sincere because we were on skype and she looked like she was dying trying to tell me those words, she was choking at first. But now she has a wall up, and will hardly talk to me, Sounds dumb, but I need her in my life, she was my emotional support she was everything to me, now that shes not here with me anymore I am going insane. She made me promise I won't kill myself. But I don't know if that is a promise I will be able to keep anymore. I have a bit of <edit total eclipse method >left over from a wisdom tooth extraction. I don't know if i can handle this anymore I am trying my best but my best isn't enough.