I won't go into my story as it's long. Suffice to say I have major depression + anxiety that doesn't seem to go away without a liberal amount of benzos. I have been to a partial hospitalization program and it helped me quite a bit. I gained skills and new forms of coping mechanisms that I didn't have before. I am now months out from that and feel suicidal, with a plan. This is par for the course for me but the thoughts are getting more invasive and I'm slipping into the deep hole of depression once again. Could hospitalization help? Or will it just be another bad experience? I don't have a therapist and I don't see my psych until the end of November. I don't know that I'm an emergency case (ie psych ward) but I definitely think I need help between now and before I see my doctor again. Any advise?