I have absolutely NOOOOO energy. i can barely cope with day to day tasks and I feel like my body is horrible and weak, and I'm slipping in work and I won't be surprised if I get fired. I have no motivation and nothing makes me happy anymore. I always get sick and I can't remember a time in the last 6 mos when I was not in pain. All I can do is imagine the quickest way to end my life. The only thing keeping me on the earth is a few close friends, but they're starting to slip away and once I don't need them, I'm gonna kill myself and slip away from this fucking world. But of course I don't want to die if things will get better, but I don't know how things will get better. My body is weak and always sick and I can't be happy.