Lately I've been contemplating suicide.... I have plan on how I would "do it". People say that it will get better, but its not. Nothing is getting better,& it seems that everything is going downhill. My family treats me like crap,especially my younger sister. She tells me she'd be happier if i wasn't here. She also complains about everything I do, & says I'm not it right. Because of my depression I'm doing well in school, I have little motivation to do anything school related, & my grades aren't good enough for college. I want to get into a good college, but so far my GP is not good,I'm afraid that I wouldn't be able to college, & need to live with my parents. Just last night I just woke up, & kept saying "i want to die",& I walked to cabinet & took the bottle of pills I was going to OD on,& i put it back because I was scared.