Contradictions I want to scream so hard so that someone hears But I don’t want others to know my pain. I want someone to care But I won’t let anyone in. I don’t want to hurt anymore But I am cutting again. I am lonely But I want to be alone. I want to be happy But sometimes it feels like I'm happiest in my misery. I wish someone understood But I won’t ever try to explain. I'd like to be surprised by someone reaching out But I'll never respond in truth. I’d like to laugh more But I cry instead. I want to escape this But I also want to live well. I wish you were here But I also wish I were there with you.