I don't know why.. My eating habits have gotten back to normal, i was healthy and then suddenly ive been feeling a complete loss of control..and not eating gives me this great sense of control and power...and i keep not wanting to eat. and its driving me insane i dont want to not eat. i want to eat and be healthy. i dont want to lose weight..but recently ive felt fat. I'm 5'4 and 124lbs and i'm a size 0. so I cant be fat, right? but why do i feel like i look so fat??