The doc has just today given me enough meds to put me under perminantly. Then I got triggered three times in 15 mins in chat, all ywith my greatest love, lyrics. Drugs, just like I want. Cutting, which I'll be doing if it doesn't work. Rape - it might not have been rape, but sexual assualt can leave alot of the simlar feelings, that I can't get over. And of course, this is all my fault. Because no one meant to, but why can't mods stop people/themselves from quoting possibly triggering lyrics? And why is everyone blaming me about getting angry about it? I'm angry because I want help, not reasons to do it. God's giving just me a chance to go out with dignty I guess... Why shouldn't I take it?