It can only get worse and when I thought I was at rock bottom, it just got deeper. My parents are strongly suggesting I work full time and finish college. They want me out of their house after moving back in a few months ago. No one truly wants me around....not even my own parents. Not to mention it is the holiday season and as objective as I am to the Christmas season. I would think somebody would be glad to see me. I am a mess...haven't shaved in a month. I sleep all the time (now that winter break is here). The more I think of it the more death appeals to me. Maybe dying near Christmas would make my family think for once. My body is worn out and my mind is tired. Can somebody call me eternally home. Take the burden of life off of me and allow me to see the dark after the light.