I stopped taking my meds a few weeks ago for financial reason (couldn't afford to fill the script). My therapist is on maternity leave and won't be available until September and yesterday my father unexpectedly died of a heart attack. Right now I am handling things very well, which scares me. I feel like it hasn't hit me yet, and when it does finally sink in it is going to be really really bad. Of course it's not like I hadn't expected it. He was 65 (not too old by today's standards) but he smoked a pack and a half a day for the past 45 years, he had neuropathy, high cholesterol, and once had a stroke several years ago. The worst part is worrying about my mom. I don't know how she will be able to handle living alone when I go back to college in the fall. I'm also worried about her finances. My dad was always one to be well prepared, so I hope he was for this, but I'm not sure. She has no income of her own, and was entirely dependent on his retirement and disability. Anyway, just wanted to vent and look for some advice on how to handle this and prepare myself for when it really sinks in that he's gone.