I'll try to keep this short, so no one falls asleep.......... I have been married for quite some time. It's a very poor marriage, and the guy is emotionally abusive. There has been some physical abuse in the past, but that has stopped. Basically he's just very cruel to me. We also have a son. He's the greatest thing since sliced bread, but perhaps I'm biased. :wink: I have become extremely depressed and suicidal because of this marriage. In fact I'm sitting here now, with bloody tissues all around me, because I like to hang onto them after I cut (I guess that's pretty sick, huh). I have thought often of leaving the marriage, but because of serious long term illness, I don't know how I'd support my son and myself. I also worry about the trauma of divorce and moving, etc., to my son. But if I stay, my son has to live with this zombie I've become. I don't think I even combed through my hair yesterday. He deserves better. Often, I think the best way out is just to end my own life. The only reason I haven't, is because I know that would really hurt my son. I'm not trying to put anyone on the spot here, but if anyone has been through any similar experiences, I would like to hear how they handled it. I'm pretty much at the end of my rope. I use to be a happy person, now, I'm not really even a person anymore. Just a walking corpse.