I just couldn't do it, these last three weeks have been going so well. This morning was a low for me, and I don't know why. Why do I feel this way? I have been on the college honor list for the last three semesters, 3.9/4 GPA, and yet none of these things matter to me. I tried to tell my family, and they all think I am joking, or I hear "How could you even think about doing that to me" I am 20 years old and have been like this for over 5 years, on and off. Maybe I should just end it. I really don't know why I typed this.